Good sometimes comes in the form of disaster

It is always difficult to see in advance, but looking back, I see it clearly. Everything that happened in my life which first appeared as disaster was, in reality, good.

Things happen in life which seem dreadful at first. Obvious failures. Embarrassments. Financial struggles. Losing a job or customer. Getting sick. Breakups. Divorce. Losing access to a child. Even more dreadful things, or so it would seem.

The ego always tries to understand, to control, to analyze, to solve, to avoid, to figure out. The ego’s goal is to extend your past sense of identity to the future—to ensure that you remain comfortable in thought-continuity and that nothing changes. When something happens in the present to threaten this objective, the ego panics. You become fearful and feel hopeless.

But faced with any reality, you eventually adapt. You face it. You accept it. You move on from your new, changed position. Better yet, you bring unconditional love, acceptance, forgiveness, and present moment awareness to the challenge. You trust in reality—allowing it to be as it is.

Then, one day long after the required changes have occurred, you remember the old situation in relation to your current state. You realize the changes were necessary and good. Everyone and everything is better now.

Good always prevails because reality is good. What we experience as suffering or crisis is only truth emerging from what was previously false. We can learn to observe the mind. Smile at our thoughts even in the face of disaster, knowing the deeper truth—which can never be understood in advance.

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There is no magic in spiritual words or rituals; rather, all power is in living the teaching

When the ego attempts to embrace religion or spirituality, it does so without examining itself. The unobserved mind picks and chooses pieces of the belief system that it finds compatible with its preferences. The false identity is then strengthened by judging and condemning others who believe differently.

To the ego, a spiritual teaching is not necessarily taken as wisdom to be lived by; rather, as a strange magic. The rituals, the words, the crystals—whatever it may be—are believed to summon mysterious, divine powers to solve problems and deliver us to heaven. So much is asked in prayer, yet all the answers (which are already contained within the spiritually alive teachings) are misunderstood or ignored.

To awaken is to lose faith in magic…to become willing to live in truth. But the ego will not allow your salvation to occur. To do so would be to look at itself honestly. That would be its death and no entity would choose its own demise. Hence, to be saved, the ego must be allowed to die.

The true power of any spiritual faith only flows into your life when you live according to God’s reality, universal law—when you align with nature itself. The end of suffering, the New Earth, and eternal life is only possible for those willing to turn away from the devil—which is only another word for ego.

Look not at the words and rituals, but to what they teach…to where they point. Live the lesson literally to dissolve problems end to suffering. The lesson is unconditional love, forgiveness, fearlessness, humility, honesty. Be present. Be love.

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"Strangers" by Abscondo (live looping performance)

From the album Life Light (2020)

Lyrics:

These days I’m not afraid of strangers
Sometimes I even look them straight on in the eye
And these days I’m not afraid of saying
Just what exactly is right there on the tip of my mind

I’m taking what is mine
Do what I want to with my time
I guess I had to find my way alone

I’ve never been quite this wide open
Just ready to embrace whatever comes my way
But these day’s I just walk these streets hoping
You’re not just a beggar who’s gonna ask me for some change

I’m keeping what is mine
Do what I want to with my time
I guess we all have to find our way alone

These days I’m not afraid of strangers
Someday someone’s gonna take me by surprise
And these days I’m on my guitar playing
Don’t care if you listen or if you don’t have the time

I guess I’m doing fine
Do what I want to with my time
That’s how I found my way alone


"While You Were Asleep" by Abscondo (live looping performance)

From the 2018 album and film called Treetops.

Lyrics:

While you were asleep, you were here, in my arms
It never matters how steep, or how long, we go on
Don’t you feel there is something in the air that keeps us so damn strong
How sweet, how sweet is our song

When I was so weak, you were there, you were strong
It never matters what we seek, or how long, we go on
It don’t matter what you do
I will come along with you

Don’t matter what we try
If it’s me and you then we both will fly
While you were asleep, you were here, in my arms
It never matters how steep, or how long, we go on


"Forbidden Curiosities" by Abscondo (live looping performance)

Lyrics:


I'll wait for the right moment
If it takes my whole life
Cuz none of this is real to me
The colors I know you don't see
But I feel them them inside

You've got nothing now to say to me, still on the phone with your family
So I'll keep this inside
But if in these routines you might free forbidden curiosities
I could change your whole life

In the light of a cool morning
While these thoughts are alive
The sun is lighting up those dreams
The world still sleeps so I'm still free
So I'll keep very quiet
And if I should fade off to sleep, the day will start with or without me
Then I'll do what's required
But if in these routines I might see, people who are just like me
I'll invite them inside

Hope you'll stay by my side


"Blue House" by Abscondo (live looping performance)

From the Abscondo album Victory in a Landlocked Sea (2015)

Lyrics:

On an August night when we were 17
You stood and cried I had to set you free
I had my life and what I wanted to be
Felt I was right I know you disagreed with me

It just rains all the time
The winter’s long the summer’s not so fine
But I’m still dreaming
We’ve still got time
Love is on our side

On a stormy night when I was 29
Spent half my life still wishing you were mine
Girl I still loved you when I passed on by
Your big blue house with your little girls inside, and I cried

Don’t you think that you should be with me?
Don’t you remember how we used to be?
Do you still think I could come to your blue house, take you out or?
Could it still be you were right that final night when you said that

It just rains all the time
The winter’s long the summer’s not so fine
But I’m still dreaming
We’ve still got time
Love is on our side


"Life (Whispers)" by Abscondo (live looping performance)

From the 2020 Abscondo album Life Light

Lyrics:

So I know life is tough
The system is unjust
And when you’ve had enough
They come back for some more
Where are you supposed to go?
How are you supposed to know?
With voices in the head
And whispers of the soul

So I know money’s tight
You lied awake last night
While she always fights
You come back from more
Cuz where are you supposed to go?
And how are you supposed to know?
With voices in the head

And whispers of the soul

Don’t be afraid to lose
Those few illusions that you kept so half-alive
Now, do as you choose
And as you do you know the truth will flood your eyes

So I know you’re filled with fear
The truth seems so unclear
But you can stand right here
There’s nowhere you need to go
There’s nothing else to know
Just to please let go
Of the voices in the head
When you’ve got whispers of the soul

So I know life is tough
The system is unjust
And when you’ve had enough
You can just let go


"I'll Die Smiling" by Abscondo (live looping performance)

From the 2015 album Victory in a Landlocked Sea

Lyrics:

Out of place
Some street in London's left me out of place
Looked right at you did you see my face?
Seems all of London's going separate ways
I'll go mine

To New York
No sky above me as I walk its floor
Bright lights attack me but I just ignore
Seems like New York's becoming such a bore
Waste of time
But time is still the question
What 'cha gonna do?
From infite directions
You gotta choose a few

So I've searched some sad, sad cities
I've seen some semblance of the truth
I've walked so many journeys
that I've worn these scuffed-up shoes

So I'll die smiling
And I'll die trying

Deep in love
A heart that's beating should be deep in love
She looks right at me as we float above
Seems so sudden we face questions of
These two lives

Like before
A mind that functions looks for something more
We can't stop walking through that open door
So, yes, you've got me but like I said before
This is mine

So time is still the question
What 'cha gonna do?
From infinite directions
You've gotta choose a few

I've sought some sense of newness
Heard never-ending calls of youth
I known what it means to do this
because I've shattered each excuse

And I'll die smiling
And I'll die trying
I'll die smiling
I'll die trying